manumission
…knowing begins with the awareness of the deceptiveness of our commonsense perceptions, in the sense that our picture of physical reality does not correspond to what is “really real” and, mainly, in the sense that most people are half-awake, half-dreaming, and are unaware that most of what they hold to be true and self-evident is illlusion produced by the suggestive influence of the social world in which they live - Erich Fromm
yells for a yes
scream and don’t doubt thats the only thing you’ll know how to do once I’m done with you, just put me on once more and i’ll show you what I mean. Just accept the fact that I’m not who is once here anymore but only one who has left that concept. And devoured once again on previous thoughts and the “unknown” because it is all lost concept from once before. It is how much of that concept of complete understanding have we left at our last major juncture and how much retained the determines so much relating to capitol. Existhenstial capital that is.
once been weary
once you’ve been weary you know it and it stays with you until you reach a point where you can look back and piss off into those weary times and feel 3 or 4 feet of satisfaction that you don’t know weary so closely anymore. its great and when you can realize that those things that were used to categorize us were so circumstantial that they don’t last more than you allow them to so they simply don’t exist. once you’ve been weary you try and leave it like a one night stand but its always calling you up but it doesnt really call you up, your conscience freaks you the fuck out telling you that one day when your dignity and your reputation matters its gonna call and everyone is gonna hear about where you’ve been and who you really are and weary will be a familiar bedfellow once again.
"I was never horribly self-obsessed or wrapped up in my own weirdness, but when my daughter was born, suddenly there was clarity," he said. "I wasn't angry anymore. It was the first purely selfless moment that I had ever experienced. And it was liberating. In that moment, it's like you become something else. The real you is revealed."
Push Push Push
In short since my earlier post was deleted somehow, Fuck Satisfaction.
Shutter
Let me adjust my aperture because I'm about to enter a two month leave from school. School ends after approximately 10 more hours spread over the remainder of the week. Summer should resemble a pleasureable time but usually it entails doing nothing, meandering and wondering.
Never Be Clean
Never be clean. Imperfections will stand out as keratized scars. Destroy any hope of being "clean" and immerse in becoming weathered and comfortable in existing in an environment where a cleansing is only necessary in times of filth. Don't assume. I'm not dirty but I'm certainly not clean, just being honest with my projections concerning my existential makeup. Every time you look around realize that these moments compose the orchestra, the 5 part play, the movie, the song, the album, the eulogy. This is it, this is the big time. We all came here to listen and to see and participate. Everyone's here and now and its not slowing down or stopping or happening in 2 or 3 months years or whatever you invented to postpone reality. Gain some flaws and some attributes and become a character, throw off your uniform and show us what you're made of. Dust.
Causes
There are effects and causes. There are citizens and slaves. There are desired effects and unintended results. There is right and wrong and the line has been blurred since our conception. Whats right for one is wrong for another. Altruism is a paradox and serving self-interest is much simpler at times. Devils and clowns and fulfilling a fear of the unknown are amusing endeavors. Keep fighting, keep walking and communicating with understanding.
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